It's good to be me

MY blessing .

So yesterday i talked to an old friend i used to be pretty damn close with. We lost touch after i got pregnant and moved back home and stopped working . She had gone on to say that its a shame that i threw my life away and had a child and how being engaged with a baby has sealed up my life. It kind of pist me off because she knows where i've came from. Its not a shame whatsoever that im engaged and have a baby, its a damn miracle ha. I guess not to many people know a lot about my past except the few im close with. I battled a drug problem for over 5 years. Finally got clean when i found out i was pregnant and have been clean since. Its been 18 months and its the longest I've been clean since i was 15. I'm so proud of myself.. I really started to think i'd never stop. I got serious with my now fiance who i dated off and on since i was 15 and hes always stuck by my side through anything. I love that man more than words can describe. Getting pregnant straightened up my life. It wasnt a bad thing. I was so scared at first because I didnt know how i was gonna do it ha. but it became so easy as soon as he was born. Im so happy to be a mommy. Im excited to give the life to my son that my parents gave to my sisters and i. I had an amazing childhood growing up. My parents were super strict growing up with all daughters they had to be. I just decided to become a little rebel when i started working and got some freedom. I abused it and it got out of control. Im not ashamed of my past because its made me who i am today. A very super strong young woman. I've been down that path and I WILL NEVER go back down it. I thank god for my son and fiance jsut about every day because theyre people who keep me going and remind me why i changed my life. If it werent for them I really doubt Id still be here today .. it got that bad. So talking to my friend or i wouldnt even call her that anymore ha.. but talking to her and hearing her say that stuff just made me realize how pathetic she still is and how shes really not going anywhere with her life still stripping and still using. Its not a good thing whatsoever but she seems to think thats its a perfect life. Its actually a shame for her to be throwing away her life when there is so many amazing opportunities out there. I love my life and wouldn't change a thing about it except maybe adding another child to it lol which will hopefully happen sooner than later.  I love my little man and dont understand how anyone could call a child a shame. I think its good my lifes pretty sealed up. its safe and stable. i feel bad for hers not being ha. Its nice to know that everythings going to be ok.. so ill end this with saying its amazing to be me and im very thankful for having my child and my life being sealed up :]